There’s a sound in your head and it’s driving you crazy
You complain to the photos, but it doesn’t matter and then you start feeling guilty for things that happened somewhere unexpected in the night
Skin and face close over an African hole like a book in your bag and you’ve carried it your whole life, reading from time to time, trying to see where the plot falls, hoping the end is good enough to warrant the effort
You know the end
A fly lands on your hand
It’s wearing six high heels and four thousand pairs of sunglasses
You flip it away and turn on the light to write an email
The dark edge tells you to stop like a cop on the sidewalk and you do, because strangers and friends have no interest in things without meaning
You remember the woman who carried her dead child around for a few days thinking he was still alive and then she laid him down with the tigers in the green grass and walked away
The sun sank and people ran through the field screaming and you thought that maybe you could send out an email to strangers and friends and it would skip along the moon’s curve and somewhere they would find unexpected meaning in things that happened in the night
Always the night, thick as a slice of German black bread
Well, I know that you don’t but every time I start reading your piece, it’s as if you’re writing it for me and for everybody who aren’t writing but should be.
I complain to the photos and start feeling guilty. For something I did. Of course I did, we all did.
Ah, well. Maybe tomorrow. Now I can read this till the end in peace.
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I agree with Manja. A shared intimate struggle – love the email skipping along the curve of the moon.
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There is a deep sadness to this 💜
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I think you may become a character in a future novel; you and your Socratic/Woody Allen/Freudian soliloquies.
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